about me
I'm not good at these introductory things but, Welcome to my own personally created hell, I am 人間失格(Ningen Shikkaku) -No Longer Human-, or Maschinenstürmer.
I am a 15 year old anime artist and webmaster of this html and css mess with text typed up right on Microsoft Notepad
with a bunch of totemo kawaii moe moe anime girls pictures slapped on top that I think hardly even qualifies as a website but here we are pppp pa pi pu pe po
Things I'm interested in; Painting, Moe, Anime, Manga, Visual Novels, Touhou, EBM (Electronic Body Music), VOCALOID, UTAU, LaLaVoice,
Dreamcore/Weirdcore/Webcore, Yokai, Shouwa Era, Creepypastas/Urban Legends, Older Software and Internet mostly from the 2000s and 2010s
Characters that I relate to, or have a similiar personality, or both, but I won't tell you why so you'll have to find the answer yourself somehow～☆ (´・ω・`) hehehe
Etymology (I think that's what it's called)(´・ω・`)
人間失格(Ningen Shikkaku) -No Longer Human- - The title of my favourite novel, "No Longer Human" by Osamu Dazai
The reason for using both the original Japanese title and the English title was because I couldn't chose one,
also I like making people waste time on me by reading my screen name which would literally be translated as "No Longer Human -No Longer Human-",
Also I like the anime character Osamu Dazai, if you couldn't tell already by looking though my illustration pages... (´・ω・`)
Maschinenstürmer - Title of the song by band AND ONE, "Maschinenstürmer", I was listening to this song while I was first registering this website, and because
I am the No.1 AND ONE fan if AND ONE stops making music I am going to stop living after all AND ONE is at the top of my living note (opposite of a suicide note)
Favourites ♪(^∇^*)
Colour - Does the rainbow qualify as a colour I can't choose one every colour can look good aaaaaaaa
Songs - every song AND ONE has made ever, Call the Ships to Port by Covenant, It's a Sin by Pet Shop Boys, Big in Japan by Alphaville, 色彩はいにしえ(Shikisai wa inishie) by Hikashu,
晩年(Bannen)(2012 version) by Masa Works Design, 逆罪行進曲(Gyakuzai Koushinkyoku) by Machigerita, ジサツブシ(Jisatsu Bushi) by Nashimoto Ui
Albums - Nordhausen(1997) - AND ONE, SPOT(1993) - AND ONE, Flop!(1992) - AND ONE, しう(SIU)(2019) - MARETU, コインロッカーベイビー(Coin Locker Baby)(2016) - MARETU
Singers(yes, vocal synthesizers count) - Steve Naghavi, Eskil Simonsson, Koichi Makigami, Hatsune Miku(VOCALOID), Kasane Teto(UTAU)
Visual Novels - Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, CLANNAD, Saya no Uta, Doki Doki Literature Club, Subarashiki Hibi(Subahibi), Kimi to Kanojo to Kanojo no Koi(Totono), Steins;Gate
Games(both Mobile and PC) - Project Sekai(Puroseka), BSD Mayoi Inu Kaikitan, Touhou Lostword, Bang Dream Girls Party(Bandori), Taiko no Tatsujin, Yume Nikki, Slient Dream, Utaho no Tatari, Kowai shashin, and all the Touhou Games from PC-98 to Touhou 18
Why did you make this website? (´･ω･`)?
My anime villian origin story is that I used to be active on various social medias (Instagram, Twitter, etc.) from 2021-2024 where I would post my art, I would not recommend that sort of thing to anyone.
One time I had one of my art videos go viral, 20,000 or more views, It was my first taste of fame and I hated it, I received lots of unwanted attention and disrespectful comments from the video,
yet I couldn't leave back then due peer pressure (peer pressure is one hell of a thing..). I would make friends with fellow "artists" who only drew for social media/barely drew at all and had a superiority complex, and I would always get disrespect thrown at me and get scrutinized by them and have my old artworks and animations dug up and made fun of (when I would always have the upmost respect for their creations) and stolen without my consent, I would be forced into doing follow 4 follows, and I was getting stalked by people from my school. And the worst thing for me, I was hardly allowed to expirement and I was in a bind of what I could and couldn't draw, most of my art from that time was a dull coloured, overly detailed, 3/4 portrait of a popular character on 1:1 canvas. I worked hard though, I posted every day, or every other day for 3 years so I could reach lots of followers, yet people who barely did any of the work I was doing got numbers I couldn't even dream of for getting into drama or making a lazy trendy video. After so long, I finally reached 1,000 followers, I finally realized this time, there's no future in a place like this, where I am a disposable one in however many billions of users on those platforms, so I wiped everything I could in my power and killed that miserable identity, and slowly distanced myself (and as of a few months ago stopped talking to all of those "friends" of mine). And I began to try to be more like myself, and after finding Spacehey from a Youtube Video on MySpace, Ningen Shikkaku -No Longer Human- was created. After learning some basic html and css I registered this site on August 1st, 2024 after finding out about Neocities from Spacehey and Youtube(again..). I made this site to show my creations and things I like, to have freedom from all of the idiots in my real life, and so I can connect and find beautiful websites and cool people :D
My advice: Social Media is shit, don't be friends with people who disrespect you, don't be "too nice" and stand your ground, numbers are worthless in the end, "talent" does not define you, just be yourself as much as you can be - draw self indulgent art, introduce your original characters, make a diary/blog, make fanpages, make a website, anything really, don't let anyone take your ability to make what you want and express your interests - Don't make the same mistakes I did please ┌( ´_ゝ` )┐
links...
Spacehey
Pixiv
